|The real Mika Saint before going to a club. No makeup etc.|
I'm afraid of growing up and having to take responsibility for my own path in life.
Everyone has dreams when they're younger, dreams of being in a job of some sort.
"I want to be a fireman!"
"I want to be a journalist!"
Hell, even going through school, there were people who knew what they wanted to do.
I'm constantly asked by my mum and others, "Well what is it you want to do?"
It's not that simple. It's not like I have a plan in my head for what it is I want to do.
I really, really don't know.
"Well think! What do you like doing?"
That doesn't help. I like lying in bed, going for long walks and travelling.
I tried Travel and Tourism in college, but it wasn't for me. It covered customer service, tour guides, cabin crew, travel agents and all sorts of jobs. The only part of the course I enjoyed was doing essays on different cities, and even then, the ones they made us research were boring.
I just want to travel the world and see different cities and cultures.
I want people to know my name. I want to be popular and for all attention to be on me for something.
"Well what is it you want to be known for doing?"
And we come full circle. I don't know. I don't have hobbies. I'm not a creative person.
I'm artistically retarded, musically backwards and my attention span for writing is nigh-existent.
I'd love to run my own male fashion line, as 'gay' as it sounds. It sounds possible, but in the long run, I wouldn't know where to start. I have no drawing skills etc. so even getting designs to print would be out of my reach. Hell, if someone wants to give me a hand with this and draw up t-shirt prints, I'll be happy to do as much business-side work as I have to. This kinda comes form my love of clothing lines such as Affliction, Xzavier etc.